Growing Pains

It's hard to believe that I'm 25 years old for I've always had an old soul (check out the rhyme game). Each year that passes I make some of the same goals and at the end of the year I wonder "Now, why didn't I accomplish that?" The answer is simple: I didn't want it bad enough. See, when there's something/ someone you want badly enough a person makes the sacrifices to have those things. I have been on a weight loss rollercoaster since I finished my freshman year at Fisk. (Yikes!)

One of the major things that I've learned is how to adapt, hence my growing pains. While I am a people person I rarely start conversations with individuals and tend to like to be alone. See being alone ensures that I don't say something that can offend someone, be in an uncomfortable environment, and ultimately all of my needs and wants are met. While riding down 77S on Saturday I thought just how much I prefer to do things alone. After having so many letdowns I simply find it best.  Here's my biggest growing pain:

Learning to let go: What all does this entail, you ask. Let me explain. I learned to let go of the hurt and frustration associated with past relationships. Ultimately, my holding on to these issues prevents me from being truly free. I learned to let go of those that didn't want to help themselves. This was primarily for my family. I used to wonder " o, why don't they do this and o goodness they have so much potential? Blah blah blah. I never had a problem not helping non family members that hindered their own successes but I have always wanted the best for my family. However, I realize now that my standard of success doesn't always, if ever, match the success that the individual has. So I'm done helping people that choose to not help themselves. I've let it go.

Remember, growing pains are essential to the maturation of successful and happy individuals.

Peace,
Ri